shifted to www.cravingsatisfaction.blogspot.com

requisition is a choice.

and so i chose not to.

unexpected happenings to a hero.

just like the superman that fell from the horse and broke his back. does people still remember him as superman? maybe. but more will just remember him as the superman who broke his back. the downfall is remembered. not the heroic deeds.

human minds are skewed towards remembering negative feedbacks and negative stories.

i wish i could do something.
i wish i could prevent it.
i wish i could be there.
i wish someone did something.
i wish it never happened.
i wish there will not be any damage.

but its all too late.
the damage is done.
the image is tarnished.
the memories are scattered.

preventive measures.

destructive truth.

repetitive dreams.

life fulled with jokes even though its april fools day.

the irony is. the joke doesnt end there. it continues on. and it destroys.

what to believe when everyone says one thing about a person but the person itself says another thing?

how much do i know to know which side to take or which side of the story is true?

what about when everyone else relates that particular situation to a whole different scenario?

how different is the scenario? is it just a stereotype? or am i the only one who thinks that others are stereotyping?

i dont know.

i dont know what to believe. what to do. what is my stand. i dont know. im shaken.

god has an interesting way of throwing us out course when we think that all is going well and smooth.

my direction is shaken. what i was so sure about. now its in disillusion.

questions are answered with 'no way'. why is answered with 'no'.

what is up next? i dont know. where does this lead me to? i dont know too. but what if it isnt what i thought for sure it would be?

ego and emo comes in?

i dont know. someone somehow talk to me? my thoughts are so unorganized.

conflicts exists as they are. resolving takes too much effort. thus making it left aside to erode into deeper conflict.

what else is there to do when all is said and done?

all that’s left is to look up to a higher power and authority and surrender.

i dont understand how one event that is suppose to bring people together

is breaking friendships and pulling people further away from each other

Reversal?

For many people, tertiary education is to find their leadership qualities.

 

Somehow for me, university life has taught me how to take a step back. Be less controlling. And let others lead sometimes too.

 

Just so the opposite. I became tamer if i can say so.

this blog has been serving as a personal venting spot so far.

lighter and less emo contents can be found at www.cravingsatisfaction.blogspot.com

-siaomeen-

a postcard from every place he goes for work.
even though he is based in penang, but he travels around malaysia for work.
this one is from langkawi =)
its one of the many that he sends as surprises for me

happy birthday again
and happy 25 months

standing behind the tainted glass
peeping in to the once belonged place
was it the people? was it the structure?
somehow it all faded away

is it all about pleasing men
or reaching man's expectations
the point is lost

the fixed norm of behavior
with no excuse for wanting to be behind the stained glass
becomes an invisible dominating force
that leads to cold plastic hearts

stand outside and watch
rather than be part of what's in
at least there is the warmth from the sun out there.

siaomeen misses the table corner to lean my head on

and the sofa right opposite me

with the person who

spends hours looking at me

thinking that i dont know he's looking at me

=)

self build or result of consequences.

it doesnt quite concern me

retreat back into the cozy shell.

locked. sealed.

siaomeen is liking the silence more than the noise.

siaomeen doesnt like cramps that feels like my whole inner body is being scraped out slowly but surely.

when everything is well and climbing up the scale real well
something has to happen to bring the whole thing down again huh

slow reaction

knowing me?

as it slowly sink in that.

nothing is as innocent as it seems.

it hurts.

badly.

Fly me to the moon
Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

tossing nights.

no - likey