The promotion has kicked into effect. :) Thank god for his blessings. Its amazing to see god's miracles happening even in work. Imagine, we were out of ideas, and somehow, this ship managed to make a u turn just to pick up cargo :) (which saved my job) Amazing stories to be told.

Challenges do pop up by the mountain loads along each passing hour. But i'll take it as a good learning curve, and more opportunities to see God's blessings even at work.

This weekend is a dating weekend. :D im excited, very excited

Walk with me

It takes more than venturing into new areas individually to sustain a relationship. It takes collectiveness, and tons of effort.

Took a long drive up to Sungai Petani, taking the north south highway, and down again, this time branching out from taiping to detour and meet him.

 

 

Ends with a bright horizon. A new start to the massive construction.

Love knows no boundaries.

I force my eyes open. Keep myself busy with all other unneeded things. Tell me, all is well.

But the tears doesnt say so. It flows in trickles, just an overflowing bucket of water. Nothing more, nothing less.

Why? Why? Why?

If, then i’ll love you. But not the way he does.

Its just coincidence that both chose a different path. Its not a mistake.

Thank you for that one hour of your time.

I'll take any shoulder. 

I just need a place to let the tears flow. 

Common questions. Awkward answers. Awkward silence.

I cant speak for u.

Do u trust me?

Im still here.

Until i convince myself, it'll remain a dream. And i dont want to wake up. Even if its a nightmare. I dont want to wake up. Because i fear once i wake up, the dream is gone. Forever.

I wish i can give up everything, for love.

The longer it is, the more uncertainties hold us back, the further we
seem to drift apart.

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I don't want to jump in the boat and years down look back to say : I
should have waited a little longer.

Don't give up yet will you?

I wish i can give up everything, for love.

The longer it is, the more uncertainties hold us back, the further we
seem to drift apart.

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I don't want to jump in the boat and years down look back to say : I
should have waited a little longer.

Don't give up yet will you?

Pretty surface

Past hurts and dealing with them was the main topic of today's sermon. Hurts cannot be forgotten and put aside, at any point of time in life when it is triggered back, the same hurt surfaces once again. 

Instead, hurts are meant to be healed by God. 3 main steps to go through : 

1. Awareness

Be aware of past hurts. Acknowledge them 

2. Express

There's nothing wrong to express emotions/anger. Tell God. Do something drastic if need to, have a hair cut, scribble on papers, scream in your pillow, seek council. But hurts should not be suppressed back into the treasure box because it'll just become worst. 

3. Restoration

The most important part of dealing with past hurts. Total restoration comes from God and God only. 

As the pastor was speaking, I could relate to so many areas. Certain phrases, like : every time when asked : How are you? The reply would always be : Im fine! The question is, how many times we are actually fine? 

Another example would be, people with deep past hurts always play/pretend tough. All it takes is for them to drop a tear and the whole river follows. There's so much hidden and buried inside that is unsolved. 

The result of unrestored part hurts leads to symptoms such as withdrawal from a certain topic, withdrawal from a particular crowd, avoidance of certain places, sometimes even physical symptoms like constant migraine. 

I reach to you the one who makes the blind eyes see

Who breaks the chains of sickness with authority

Restoring what was broken

So it may fly again

I live to worship you

I breathe to worship you

All of my days Your face I will seek

For as I seek your face

You'll lead me to that place

Of divine exchange

Uncountable blessings

Somehow just hit my mind, God has been tremendously good to me. All the monthly cramps has been happening on the weekends/holidays, never on working days. That is a huge blessing, considering the amount of cramps and discomforts to go through. :)

Friday

:) Its good to know that the weekend is coming. Break from the weekday work routine. 

Singapore

significance

God has made each one of us significant in his kingdom. 

How timely it comes to me, to lift my spirit up. Been feeling low recently, with thoughts of how im incompatible. But i realise i was comparing myself to others, its good but i was putting on additional pressure on myself, to push gaining experience. Its a plus i have maybe, to be able to take pressure and to make pressure for myself to grow. But its also an even better if area for improvement. The best solution is when i learn how to keep a balance.