Attention. Privacy

There's a reason why the ladies n gents are placed not within the
office. Perhaps its the smell, or to avoid people spending extra time
gossiping or just killing time in there. But. When the floor reflects
all movements n actions. All the privacy is gone. No more times when
the highlight of getting out from the ladies is to. Not bump into
anyone, preferably. So that whatever done inside is left inside.

1.2.3.

maiden post from my mailbox =) will be back with more. definitely

Asian vs Western

There is a vast difference in terms of upbringing and the result between the west and the east. In cases where language tends too be perceived as a major seperation factor, my observations differ.

case study 1 : child sleeps in on a saturday morning

Asian : (knocks door loudly based on instinct) Oi, wake up already la. wanted to bring you out to do this and that, SEE NOW. half day gone still sleeping! bought food for you also the food smells already la. dont need to eat. sleep la. (pounds on door loudly again)

western : Is everything alright? are you sick? its time to wake up. Come on, head to thetoilet, wash up. tThere's food waiting for you. dont take too long ya =) (ends with a gentle tone, nice and sweet)

Rat Racing

So im in. Finally. Catching my breath. But its all fun. Working in a Scandinavian company is different. the culture, the company layout, the sense of belonging given. Its a steep learning curve. However, the jokes, the laughter, and the comfort of the huge mounted glass top table that can be level up and down to sitting or standing position covers the never ending learning. =)

Dad

As a person who always exchanges our hard saved coins with notes that seems so big and huge to us when we were physically smaller

As a person who somehow does the half crooked, half normal cheeky smile when we crack a joke or pull his leg

As a person who never fails to provide for the family

As a person who spoils us, like how my attempt to help in gardening was put to a halt merely half an hour after i started just because : meen, the sun is getting too hot for you. but he stayed on and went on with gardening

As a person whom every little girl looks up to as her hero.

Happy father’s day

Work

So, I’ve gotten a job offer which i gladly took up. Work starts on the 1st of July, mondays to fridays from 830 till 530. pay is ok. perks are awesome. international firm. and. great benefits given. with 16 days of annual leave. and many more. =P

Next up, Friday in kindergarten. =) I am going to miss those kids when i start work.

And also. Shopping for work attire. A lot to buy. Daddy told me again and again. just buy. dont bother about the price. reasonable will do. haha. he knows me so well. i tend to pick and pick and choose and choose. and also walk in every single shop in the shopping mall. but sometimes, end up with no purchase. haha.

And. also. looking forward to collect the job offer letter.

Saturday morning. Sitting in for Creative Arts Ministry in church. Its’ been a long time since i left that ministry for studies. It will surely bring back memories. But im looking forward to it too =)

Had a long talk with chai hong. =)

pretty much it. loving my life.

Unemployed and Money

Taking a break as the transition between studying and working. Going for interviews as and when companies do call me up. The highlight of  these days are when i get to help out with preparation of teaching materials in the kindergarten in church. =) Its fun, not to mention the materials and toys are just so cute!

On a not so pleasant side, I’ve learnt that the society has majority of its shareholders, which includes the working world and all involved, is not a naive place to live in. No more behaving like things will be alright as long as i do my part. it takes more than that to be able to stay above the pack. Characters and words, can be painted in an extremely nice manner till it takes utmost discernment to filter what should be taken in and what to leave behind to be chuckled about.

As life leads to a different path, there are a lot more to learn. Incidents heard as stories or warnings are stuff that i get to see in real life in the working world.

But i thank god, for the moment, i take refuge in helping out in the kindergarten, to ease the transition period, and also to help me adapt from studying to working a 9 to 5 job in future.

Still am writing in to companies that i take interest in, and also, looking out for part time jobs of interest =) besides that, all is well.

chill out.

Hiatus

Away for times. but not without new photos and updates =)

Job fair organized by MOHE in PWTC was good. Added the company of friends. We girls, me, janice, sherine and sheena tried out henna. the indian hand accessory drawn for the bride on weddings. there was an entrepreneurial fair going on concurrently on first floor right above the job fair.

With wet henna. The creative part of the deal is the smart innovation of ready cut pattern on a piece of plastic. All the stall vendor had to do was to rub a layer of wet henna on our palms, make sure its even spread out, and pull away the piece of pattern plastic. The pattern forms immediately.

Leave it on for 20 minutes, it hardens by itself. After that, there is the option of washing it off with water or, peel it off with itchy fingers, which most of us chose to do so. =)

Job fair outing turned friends fun outing. =) Applied into a few companies. Still am waiting for replies. hopefully they will be positive.

so i have been away for sometime.

life has been good after shifting back. =)

attempting to rearrange my room, unpack what i brought back. but procrastination is taking its toll.

been sick. viral spreading in the house. started with mommy, to kern, and now to me.

interviews has been good. =) still am waiting for good news.

had 2 buffet lunches with 6 good tea breaks in between all within the span of 3 days. piling up on the extra fats that i have been trying so hard to lose. but then again, life is short, just eat la. =P

suppose to be in church helping out with the kindergarten today but due to the flu, im at home, resting supposing-ly.

was diagnose with lumbar scoliosis. first opinion says that its not serious enough to entail a corrective surgery. but am seeking second opinion. all is well. dont worry =) i can still walk and dance and swim.

Pack pack pack

Im packing up what else is left to head home back to shah alam. its been a great 4 years staying out but its time to head home.

Sherine, dont cry ya =) im going to miss you tons! We’ve grown from small girls with braces till pretty swans today.

 

funny girl. free stuff or discounts gets you super excited. just like this free quaker oats advertisement, saw it then you say. ok. i will order what comes along with this free gift. mana tau, flip it over and  you see this

haha. how to finish the whole bucket of chicken all by yourself?

i’ll miss those girly days we had. the drawing faces. taking photos. going through clothes, looking pretty. =)

Take good good care of yourself ya. i’ll miss cleaning the house, boiling water and laughing and talking about all random things that happened.

Dont' cry when i leave later ya. ok? we’ll meet again somehow.

28 months

How much sweeter can i ask for him to be? I have a soft spot for gentleman. Not those who put on a mask just to pretend to be a gentleman to get a girl’s attention. but those who are true gentleman, who remains a gentleman throughout even when things may not be all high flying.

Thank you chocobee! =)

 

Life

I am reminded once again that life is short. Life is not merely a wake up, sleep, wake up and sleep and that’s it type of vicious cycle. Its contains affections, emotions, memories, impact and love. Learning to let go of a life, and surrendering it to God’s hands is not easy. I wish i could, say, nothing is going to happen. But as a ordinary human being, i do not have such powers, let alone, be assured that things are going to be fine.

Living a life with no regrets is the best we can do. But there always is the reluctance of letting go. If life was worth each penny and cent, spending them on some eternal value good would probably be the best idea. Even so, there will be opportunity cost incurred by letting go of what others that could be bought with that equivalent value of money.

I wish nothing will happen. I pray that nothing will happen. I keep my fingers crossed hoping that nothing will happen. I dread the phone call coming in anytime now.

Color palette

There are days when it just feels so oh-today-is-a-girly-i-want-to-dress-up day.

I am loving my new earrings. Its rectangulish with 2 pieces of mirror across, leaving it to reflect whatever light it comes across. =)

Or there are days when i-just-want-to-try-out-every-single-color-of-every-makeup-brand-in-watsons. which usually ends up with a colorful back of my hand

oh well. Im a girl after all. =)

Nando’s

Somehow, I have never been to nandos before. There was one in atria near my secondary school but it just didnt appeal to me. haha. weird. kenny roasters was a more favored choice.

Until. one day anna asked “HOW CAN YOU NOT TRIED NANDO’S BEFORE? AIYA. I BRING YOU THERE LA OK?” haha. her tone was so funny on the phone la.

and so. we went. =) on a girl’s night out. talking and laughing and manja-ing. awh. i miss anna already.

i didnt know nando’s was this good. seriously. the chicken was tender and juicy. way better than kenny roasters. the fries was solid. good stuff.

haha. i took and the honey flavoured chicken and this sign was stuck on the piece of chicken. boo. but it was good.

See the not so brave sign? boo.

  Anna’s handwriting. we were in Arab’s one day for dinner. i think loren, rowen and dihhaw was there too. To order food there, we were given a menu, a stack of papers and a pencil to write down our orders. So anna started doodling everyone’s name on each piece of paper. see. i still keep a photo of it =) you must love me to bits la =P

verbal confrontations

when responsibilities are not done

when blame is pushed around

when fault is pushed back and forth

when words are of empty content

when actions not taken

i prefer a verbal confrontation.

who cares.

back off

being nice just to be cheesed off back in the face

its time to put a stop to the nonsensical happenings

taking things back into my own control

reluctance in protecting knowing that protection leads to empty promises

let it be come what may

desolation or isolation i take it willingly

A full circle

Left home quiet, return back home quiet.

University life had taken its full circle. From the very beginning where words were few to the exposure and opportunities leading to a more outspoken person. But now as i leave, its been some time since i took a step back and re-constraint my thoughts and words to myself. I figured out its the safest way maybe to not put myself in vulnerable situations.

From being the shadow, to being in the limelight. Likewise, now its back to being the observer. Having the chance to experience the reversal of roles and character has brought me much joy and exposure, seeing different people and different characters. However, i now prefer to just shun away from the crowd and observe. Its more interesting this manner.

Many times i’ve taken on different roles, different sides, different approach towards people. Its been fun portraying different sides of me. But as i leave university and enter back into the world, i stick back to the original quiet me. and im happy with that. (fullstop)

Intrusion

siaomeen feels intruded and stepped all over her head. Boo.

I dont treat you this way. Why on earth is your courtesy lacking? Sigh.

Grace

IF there was one word to describe graduating, it would be grace.

The grace that provided me with a place to study in UTAR, after getting rejected from matrix after spm, teachers training college and university of sydney (family couldnt afford 4 years of expenses in Australia).

The grace that provided me with just enough to get a scholarship for 4 whole years – 1 year foundation and 3 years degree

The grace that saw me through the first 2 months of solitude in college, walking for classes alone, eating alone, studying alone, just because i didnt have any friends and was having a huge culture shock

The grace that brought me out of depression when i was in college as the aftermath of him breaking his promise.

The grace that brought good Christian friends during college who took the extra initiative to ask me out for meals and for fellowship sessions despite the being the quiet person and full of reluctance to join in.

The grace that gave me the courage to open up slowly to a few closer girl friends i made in college.

The grace that sustained my results in college.

The grace that brought me through Shawn’s passing and helped me pick myself up again.

The grace of god that provided me a place to stay in Sg Long despite having to randomly ring on doorbells.

The grace of god that again brought me through exams by exams even though sometimes i was sick, tired, sleepless and panicking like there’s no tomorrow.

The grace of god that gave me the opportunity to explore leadership in various areas. i didnt know that i could have been so influential and impactful, hopefully in a good manner.

The grace of god that provided a way out of all the confrontations happening in the previous place with ex housemates. the level of violence and discrepancy was high but i know we were protected somehow, even with threats of using the hammer to break open the house padlocks, a few police reports made and having so many wires inside a few power points cut off.

The grace of god that taught me how to be still, have a seat, relax and learn once more of the meaning of love. which i still am learning till today. what i thought i knew, what i thought i was practicing, had reach a plateau and was slowly going downhill. it was time to recharge, realign, relearn. and i was given the chance by god and by people around me. a sincere thank you.

The grace of god that placed me in a wonderful family which i know is the best place i can ever be. the closeness, the warmth, the sharing sessions, the daily phone calls. all of these has been a daily encourage to me knowing that they care. and they are praying for me. and they love me.

 

The grace of god that brought dihhaw to me. This same grace that answered my prayers of a life partner ever since secondary school. All criterias, all dreams were met. The accumulated prayers of criterias i wanted was all met perfectly. What more can i ask?

There has just been so much of grace in my life and i thank god for each of them, even for those that have slipped past my memories but i know the hand of god was evident. and i have the assurance that the grace of god will carry me through life because god loves me. =)

Smile or say thank you at least?

I dont mind doing people a favor. But at times when the favor is treated like something-i-should-do-whether-i-like-it-or-not-just-because-you-dont-care makes me sick.

For courtesy sake, at least offer to help? I’m not a maid. (or i should put it as we are not maids). If you do have personal reasons for not helping, fine at least an acknowledgment will do? a simple smile and thank you. What is so tough about that? sigh. pretending that we’re invisible and walking away twice in minutes is not a good idea of showing appreciation.

sigh. What will become of her when i leave? I dont like people stepping on others heads. and i dont like people who can spare time for all other unnecessary matters and yet when it comes to responsibility, pretend like it doesnt exist even after constant patient reminders. Nope, that’s not a good attitude.

sigh. shakes my head. i give up.