i stood at the window
enjoying the breeze
looking at the clouds that covers the mountains
then the sun came out
and the clouds slowly disappeared into the air

how beautiful is the sight of nature
it gave me assurance that today is going to be another beautiful day
because god made it

the lift doors opened
and ta-dah...
ROMEO appeared..!!!

i cried myself to sleep last night
somehow
tears just flowed
i dont know why
i wasnt sad
but my mind wasnt connected to my emotions,
mind not connected to eyes
and mind not connected to mouth
tears just flowed and flowed like no one business
dont ask me why
i cannot explain
i myself dont understand why

its been ONE year Mr Yap Swee Kee...
sometimes i look into the sky
wondering whether do you get to see what still goes on here on earth
sometimes i think back
praising god for how he used your life to touch so many of us
sometimes i sit down
and remember the day one year ago from now
tears still flow down
sometimes i hear your laughter in my head
it reminds me to press on in life
sometimes i know
life goes on
but i thank god for once having such a wonderful person in my life
life is beautiful

what kind of expectation is that?
im not the benchmark
im also human
and yes...
i am happy
i am contented
when i say it doesnt matter
i really mean it
im not putting pressure on myself
my parents are not
so
dont start going
awh.. you'll do better next time
or
its ok
or
jasmine!! what happened to you?

have i said that
there is NO MORE braces?
=)

numbness

i've been through it before
i can go through this again

never expect myself to dominate
never ever
its something new
not good huh

this is bad
i wanted to type something
but i cannot remember at all
none of it..
how ar?

Welcome Home - Brian Littrell

Genre/Lang. : Christian

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said “no way”
But I laid it all down, gave everything
In my head rang the words that my Father said
You’re never far
I will be where you are
And when you come to Me
I will open My arms

Chorus:
Welcome home, you
I know you by name
How do you do?
I shine because of you today
So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know, son, it’s good just to see your face

When I look at you holding my heart
I will give to you all that I have
Son, I know there’ll be times you will feel all alone
I will share with you the words my Father said
You’re never far
I will be where you are
And when you come to Me
You can bet I will open My arms

Chorus:

So I’ll be waiting for that day
Just to feel Your warm embrace
Your love has shown I will never be alone
For You will welcome me home
I’ll forever be, for you will say to me
Welcome home

Chorus:

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said “no way”

god speaks
firmly
silently
but surely

the feeling of insecure

More
by Matthew West
album: Happy (2003)

Take a look at the mountains
Stretching a mile high
Take a look at the ocean
Far as your eye can see
And think of Me

Take a look at the desert
Do you feel like a grain of sand?
I am with you wherever
Where you go is where I am

And I'm always thinking of you
Take a look around you
I'm spelling it out one by one

(Chorus)
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more

Just a face in the city
Just a tear on a crowded street
But you are one in a million
And you belong to Me

And I want you to know
That I'm not letting go
Even when you come undone

(Chorus)
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more
I love you more

Shine for Me
Shine for Me
Shine on, shine on
Shine for Me

(Chorus)
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more

(Chorus)
Than the sun
and the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you, yesterday and today
Through the joy and the pain
I'll say it again and again
I love you more
I love you more

And I see you
And I made you
And I love you more than you can imagine
More than you can fathom
I love you more than the sun
And you shine for me

just a question
destiny?
and signs?
is it really true?
then
does that mean
i do know?
i knew since long ago?
then
what am i doing here?

there are some people in life
no matter how far apart
they are
but still
somehow
hearts are opened to the deepest part
when they meet
or when they talk
or when they just look at each other and smile

mixing up the signs in life
destiny
and a dream
and a path written out

each place
or each person
has a kind of smell
i know
i may sound weird
but it really does
its the kind of smell
that brings back memories
of days and months and years
of being at that place
or just being with that person
that unique smell

and i can smell it now

letting go
of certain things in life
that i feel like doing so

dont think its a neccesity
so what if it boosts image
or gives recognition?

im getting tired
very tired
doing stuff
just to please others

can i just let it go?

for a moment
i thought i wouldnt be blogging anymore
because
i wanted to get rid of all the weird thoughts
and weird emotions
but then
didnt last long
haha
some how
its still there