How can someone who doesnt know the ropes insist that his way is better?
How can someone who cannot even cook insist that this way of cleaning veges is wrong and impossible?
How can someone who knows it in the head to not judge says the very opposite of what is known?
The tongue is sharper than a two edged sword.
I can sit longer now :) to about 3 hours each time.
Been actively coloring and cutting pictures for the children in the kindergarten. Feels useful after doing nothing for 2 months
Went for my first dimsum after operation. :) and my second dimsum too :) Thank god for answering prayers. Was craving for fried sui gao, and was allowed to eat it during my second round of dimsum.
Tried doing a squat! and succeeded :)
Can bend down to take things now :) with a little aid of holding something so that i can balance my weight
Breakthrough in my limits! Thank god.
Started Saturday with a joy ride to church. Took a different route but it was filled with road bumps and affected the limit of my back. Was out of breath before we reached church.
Took a small break in church, and make the whole way back :) Thank god!
Rested and cooked lunch, managed to make another trip to Mydin in the neighbourhood to get some ingredients. My first trip to a supermarket :) Another breakthrough, thank god! It feels different having other people around me besides only my family or those in my house. Had a slight fear of people knocking into me.
Saturday night went out for dinner at Subang Parade :) Managed to walk from the carpark to the restaurant, carefully choosing the shortest route to minimize the distance. Managed to sit throughout dinner and walk back to car in carpark :)
Happy to eat out and have my favourite salmon sushi finally. :) 8 weeks back i was at the exact same place eating and able to sit and walk normally. So much have changed in 8 weeks. Walking slower than normal still garnered so many people looking at me like im an invalid. No difference from renting a wheelchair from the mall and be wheeled around. Walking around aided compared to walking around normally, makes me feel really grateful for being able to walk around still. At least i still have the opportunity to walk and be alive. Thank god.
Went to church service finally!!! Had to bring a pillow to rest my back. It helps to cushion the pain :) Had lunch out too, dimsum for the first time :)
Walking speed in public is slow, very slow. Do not have the confidence to walk alone yet. have to hold on to someone else’s hand.
Week 8 passed rather quickly. Started holding colour pencils for the first time after a long time. first day of coloring was tough. Couldnt tell my hand’s strength and ended up with 3 blisters all around my right hand the next day. Thank god for constant improvement of strength and coloring as days went pass. :)
Went for round 2 of sakae sushi too :) This time was on Wednesday, the speed of walking got faster. However, could have walked too much the same day, lower back and pelvic area was sore before we reached home
The numbness along the pelvic bone has gradually reduce, now i can feel touch slowly along the wound.
Wound resistance to touch has improved too. Can now use bathing soap to rub over back’s wound lightly.
I cant run, so i hide under the shell
I cant shout back, so i stay silent
I cant go up, so i keep myself occupied
Warning : Daily tortoise moments increases chances of social learning and causes mental diseases.
I can climb the stairs at home to go upstairs!! The look of everyone upstairs when they saw me half way up the stairs was priceless!
Watched a clip on dance. started off being very excited thinking i can do these steps too. halfway through the clip, suddenly i remembered that i wont be able to do more than half of the steps anymore in my life. my heart sank.
Went out to church for another joy ride :) Managed to make it to church and back non stop sitting in the rear passenger seat.
Wanted to go to church for service but couldnt make it, legs were aching from the ride the day before.
:) Been busy coloring pictures that starts with all alphabets and cutting them out with their labels.
Good physiotherapy for my fingers to recover their original strength, and also a good time filler while i recuperate before going back to work
Thinking of how the kids will be using these pictures brings a smile to my face :) This is better than having chocolates to make me happy
Thank god for giving me the motivation to push through. There are days when i felt like taking my own sweet time, days when i took a total rest from coloring and cutting pictures out.
Today was a miracle :) Had about 12 more pieces of pictures to cut and 6 more pieces to color and cut. My prayer this morning was to have strength to cut as many a possible, if possible i want to finish all of them today. Prayer of faith, knowing my back’s tolerance to sitting on the chair.
Its now lunch time, and i have 6 pieces left to color and cut, then this task is completed :) im excited to push through for the rest of the day. Can start on a different task tomorrow :)
Decided why not keep a few blog post for what i’ve been through the past one and a half months :) For remembrance and also to encourage others with same spinal bend as me.
Good news is, i went out for my first dinner! Had KFC within the neighborhood. Zinger burger tasted like freedom!
Went out for a joy ride to church! The journey to and fro is about 1 hour. Managed to sit on the rear passenger seat without standing for a whole hour! Was rather skeptical on how my body will react to the uneven Malaysian roads, but thank God all went well :) Left hand was rather sore because i was holding on to the bottom of the seat too tight :p
I choose to follow the current of the river. It goes by one direction. Rowing the boat upstream is a tough job.
And its now quiet.
Avoid this topic, but it came up on its own. I didnt go anything this time.
God, have your way.
Finished the prescript multivitamins. Urgh, what a victorious feeling. Took a lot of prayers and determination to use my fingers to cover my nose tightly and swallow down the mixture of melted pills with water.
First round of period cramps after operation was painful. Jokingly mentioned that cramps are more painful than the operation itself. I had morphine to help cope with pain after operation, compared to tiger balm to sooth cramps now. Had some difficulty curling up into a ball to warm up tummy, only can stand, sit or lie straight from now onwards.
Suggested to parents to let me sleep upstairs but was rejected. Not ready to climb the flight of stairs yet.
Face still looks pale once in a while.
Able to sit longer now, about 1 hour each time. Brother shifted my computer downstairs for me to use :) How sweet.
Wanted to go out for dinner so badly. A change of air would be good for me, so i thought. Took a shower all on my own, wore long pants to prevent getting a cold and got into the car. Journey to restaurant takes about 30 mins as dad was extra careful to go slowly especially on the uneven roads.
Just before reaching the restaurant, i felt exhausted. Body felt like all energy was drained out and i was falling asleep. Everyone got concerned even more when the restaurant was rather crowded. It could take another hour sitting in the restaurant waiting for food before another 30 mins journey back home. We ended up packing nasi lemak to be eaten at home.
Not ready for long rides out yet, but i had my first nasi lemak after operation! i love malaysia. Still restricted from eating groundnuts and chicken.
作曲：潘协庆 作词：潘协庆 编曲：王豫民
看蓝蓝的天空下绵绵的白雪 停在你脸上
爱在巴黎的赛纳河畔上面眺望 赶不上的玻璃船
却不觉得(找不到)遗憾 早已沉醉在你暖暖的手掌
紧握住我不放 偷偷的闻着你 带孩子气的男人香
呼… 我喜欢 就这样靠在你胸膛
呼… 我喜欢 没有时间没有方向
呼… 我喜欢 像这样爱的好自然
不用管别人投什么眼光 随你带着我四处地(去)游荡
呼… 我喜欢 一醒来有你在身旁
呼… 我喜欢 赖在床上看你喝汤
呼… 我喜欢 你的手放在我肩膀
像是担心我会消失一样 为我每一寸消瘦(瘦弱)而感伤
好想就这样 有你在身旁 一直到天长
在日记里圈上每一页都有你 好幸福的时光
对照第一次见面到此刻的温柔 是不是都一样
there is bound to be an area of life that we dread facing. Sometimes its a small corner that reminds us of unpleasant past or memories that we do not want to remember, sometimes its an area where we've knocked our heads in the wall a few times but still with no solution to it.
Some people run from it, but true fighters choose to face the issue face to face. Let’s deal with it once and for all. A breakthrough is sufficient.
And so, my brother was the one who encouraged me to face F major on the guitar, without barring any chords.
And i did it! :)
Singapore media corp series on lawyers and their daily lawsuits faced, coupled with intertwining of law decisions affecting their daily lives. Didnt expect this series to be way better than Ally McBeal. The arrangements of plots makes me gasp every 5 minutes and makes my finger click next episode without fail.
NTV7 will be showing the 9th episode out of 12 episodes this coming Tuesday at 8.30pm. The 12th episode is a 2 hour finale. The same series can be found in youtube. Link to first episode (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5L8VXDaqtmA)
Im truly impressed at this English production by Mediacorp. From the ending, sounds like there is a Season 2 installed somewhere. Cant wait for the next installment.
After a month of subscribing to Unifi, I must say the speed is way better than Jaring or Streamyx. Using Wifi is fast, if with LAN cable, downloads are done at the speed of light.
Out of curiousity, how does TM trace that there is a virus on my computer? They called through a call centre number (03-22465000)today to ask me to update my antivirus.
Tracking my internet activities? Isnt that a violation of individual privacy?
When a miracle happens, its personal will whether to acknowledge the miracle or grumble at previous circumstances not working out the way we want it to be.
Was searching for direct flight tickets from Singapore to Tianjin (one way) during Chinese New Year period. Its super peak season and all is expensive.
Xiamen Airlines – approx RM1300
China Southern Air – approx RM 1000
Air Asia, including transit in KL from Singapore to connect to Tianjin – approx RM750
If you need to go home for CNY, you need to. But imagine having a family of 4, that’s a huge amount of money involved just to be back for 2 weeks. :s
With the grumbles and regrets of not booking early enough during the last Air Asia promo, the clouds looked gloomy. Expensive-nye.
Good news is, Air Asia is having a Chinese New Year sale and a Final Call, Boarding Now sales too. Specially for those who didnt manage to grab cheap tickets the previous rounds!
Thank God for the sales, now the same ticket from KL to Tianjin cost only RM220. Managed to book all 4 tickets at wonderfully low prices compared to what is offered by Xiamen Airlines or China Southern Airlines. Miracle timing i call it.
Funny how we think we are superior to domestic helpers by dictating what and how work at home should be done. True that money is paid and a contract of 2 years is signed, and by right on paper the maid is tied to the employer, alleged pledge of loyalty for the 2 years involved.
We have heard of cases where maids worked for years for the same employer and they enjoy their work. The Star came out with an article interviewing a few maids with multiple years of work experience some years back.
Yet at the same time, there are numerous cases of maid abuses, starting with Nirmala Bonat, the string of cases are seemingly continuing.
What about employer abuse by the maid? When it comes to maids who stubbornly insist on doing work their way, having acute short term memory of 2 days and forgetting to do work after that or have to be re-taught, slow learners who do not want to learn, maids who are incompetent to take care of the young, sick and elderly, those who show their temper, maids who sleep with the male employer in hope of getting money, etc.
No one is born a maid, but its a job chosen. Seen so many maids that worked out because they have the right attitude, and so many maids who just are so lousy that they dont deserve to be paid even. Perhaps its a thing to consider to start a maid agency with proven quality track records of maid. Proper prep and proper attitude. These can be trained and nurtured, or so i think.
Question of the day : why does relationships work out the wrong way leading to one going to a third party for comfort or pleasure?
Common enough, difference in character, opinions, temperaments creates leading issues in a relationship. Even mature adults do not know how to handle the difference. I do not have an answer to it.
Often or not, behaviors that is not welcomed by the spouse is detected late in a relationship, after years of covering and letting love blind the eyes of seeing the real person. Being honest helps to solve half the problem. Being open and willing to change for both helps to solve the other half, or so i think.
There is an insecurity in me of losing someone to affairs. Perhaps its seeing and hearing what happens in real life. Too many cases close to the heart weakens the hope that love is loyal forever.
Knowing that all i want to know is for someone to prove my thoughts wrong, the only way for me to be convinced is by experiencing it myself.
Security comes from real love. While real love comes from God. Teach me the meaning of love and trust once again.
I was looking for a wifi phone or a dual sim card phone to cater for my long break from work. Wanted wifi for the flexibility of going online anywhere, even more that we now have Unifi at home.
With limited time to look for a phone with a budget of approx RM6++, i was open to any available ones despite being a 100% Nokia supporter all along.
When i was introduced to CSL G8, i was firstly surprised at how close it looked with an I phone. It was my first hand exposure with a touch screen phone. rather impressive.
I was even more attracted to the phone after getting to know its a dual sim card phone. saves trouble of getting one wifi phone and a second basic feature phone to cater for 2 sim cards.
Place : subang parade
Price : RM635
Freebies : hands free kit, plastic backcover for phone, charger, finger print free screen protector
Post buying experience:
Plus (+)
Minus (-)
Was faced with a rather serious production issue with this G8 phone i bought. Everytime calls were made, i could hear the other end, but the other end couldnt hear me due to loud buzzing sounds like a spoil telephone. The disturbance was worse when i was near any computer or on the road driving.
Send the phone back to Subang Parade where i bought it, the salesman couldnt do anything. Went to Sunway Pyramid where the service centre is, thank god for good service. No questions were asked, no request for guarantee letter, they took my G8 and reformatted the phone, with constant polite request for me to check if phone is better.
Despite these attempts, the buzzing sound didnt go away, but remained equally loud. Sent it to the HQ in Glenmarie, Shah Alam for the final check. Same, no questions asked, no request for guarantee letter but was just asked to fill up a form and write down the problem and i could go back and collect the phone within 24 hours.
Final verdict : the microphone was faulty and needed a change. CSL HQ did manage to fix my G8 within 24 hours.
Good service, better than any other brands based on my experience.
The verdict :
For a dual sim card phone, CSL is the in brand now with a large variety to choose from. But for a wifi phone, the applications are half done. Any other wifi phone would have much better and professional applications that are much more user friendly and less copy-cat feel.
A weakness is not a weakness if it is shown light to turn it into a
strength. Love overcomes all weakness. I hope this stays real forever.
Known uncertainty is acceptable. But unknown uncertainty leads to rejection.
Im scared. N i cant imagine myself saying this. But im not ready.
Despite going through the thought so many times mentally. Im not
ready. What is taking place now is not what i thought it would be. Be
vague, go in circles. At least i know im still on the roundabout. Now
im sitting in some strangers car heading to some unknown place.
I need friends.
Parked and saw, stacked up containers. So this is how it looks like in a container depo.
A few other liner’s brands seen as well
First check, when the containers enters back into the yard, everything has to be washed clean. Some clients return their containers with rubbish still in, assuming the container yard is a dumping ground. Quite a challenge to charge them a penalty fee.
The refrigerated containers were a big hit! Hot weather + bright shiny sun + puteri lilin people. Good way to differentiate reefer containers – most of them if not all are white in color.
Seeing how the cranes lift up containers, big accuracy needed, as the crane hooks up only 2 small hooks on the left and right top.
Going into a container, this one is slightly damaged on the top. Small dent but to clients, it means stuffing a few boxes less = less money to earn.
A flat rack container, the sides are open to load out of gauge cargo.
Good trip! could be even better if the we made if for the vessel tour. Missed it due to no security clearance. :( Next time round maybe.
Thank God for the jam to work and back from work, to have time to seek extra help in the morning. And to recollect the whole day’s work and start thanking God one by one. :)
Another tough day passed by. As much as it is a daily challenge to be standing at my desk, cracking my head to shift cargo left right centre, or to just come up with new rates and strategies, or even sit though a gruesome meeting saying something that makes sense. I know i have God to seek company and advice from.
It takes more than venturing into new areas individually to sustain a relationship. It takes collectiveness, and tons of effort.
Took a long drive up to Sungai Petani, taking the north south highway, and down again, this time branching out from taiping to detour and meet him.
Ends with a bright horizon. A new start to the massive construction.
Love knows no boundaries.
I force my eyes open. Keep myself busy with all other unneeded things. Tell me, all is well.
But the tears doesnt say so. It flows in trickles, just an overflowing bucket of water. Nothing more, nothing less.
Why? Why? Why?
If, then i’ll love you. But not the way he does.
Its just coincidence that both chose a different path. Its not a mistake.
Thank you for that one hour of your time.
The longer it is, the more uncertainties hold us back, the further we
seem to drift apart.
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted
And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I don't want to jump in the boat and years down look back to say : I
should have waited a little longer.
Don't give up yet will you?
The longer it is, the more uncertainties hold us back, the further we
seem to drift apart.
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted
And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I don't want to jump in the boat and years down look back to say : I
should have waited a little longer.
Don't give up yet will you?
Somehow just hit my mind, God has been tremendously good to me. All the monthly cramps has been happening on the weekends/holidays, never on working days. That is a huge blessing, considering the amount of cramps and discomforts to go through. :)
