been away for really long
was in indon for mission trip
went to pakam, brastagi and brayan..
had an awesome time
wonderful to feel god at work so powerfully
different experience
went in a group
great knowing everyone much better
will put some photos soon ya

internet in my house is down
had to re apply everything
but its ok la
no big issue

i thank god for bringing me through today
big war happening
but still
god is good
very good

ohya.. learned a couple of new indon christian songs
really simple yet beautiful songs la

classes starting tomorrow again

was packing stuff the whole day
still not really done yet
still need to get a few stuff here and there

planning camp was good too..
beautiful place
it was like a japanese palace
with jap sliding doors
wooden flooring
wooden structures

been learning many things
its like a whole circle
now its back to stuff like
do not judge
or do not condemn
stuff that i really need to learn especially now
and also stuff like do not backstab

been neglecting certain people
sorry..
my bad

i owe kern a day out
because his results improved a lot..

now in cc

sleepy and tired
but holidays has been rewarding la

now its back to finding back the study mood..

status check - fixed

all the trust built up
from the years
now its
shaky

was feeling totally jumbled up
think back
i think its a connection thingy
works both sides

sometimes in life
its best to leave some options not explored

i will not run after you
i will not beg
i will not ask
i will not hold on

all i'll do is just
look at you walk away
with tears in my eyes
i'll take it in alone
all by myself
and silently wish you
all the best

when i read about her
it hit me real hard
tears felt like falling
but somehow it didnt
nothing was formed in my eyes
i felt bad
i felt like i have snatched the most precious candy from a poor kid
i felt like
betrayal is the word
im real sorry
really am
i trusted what he said
i did think about how you would feel
i just didnt know it hit you that badly at that time
im really sorry

something is wrong with me
when there are no tips
i dread studying
but when almost perfect tips are given
i dread studying too
how?