appearing on tv3 on christmas day to sing carols on Malaysia Hari Ini from 630am till 9am

i was very disturbed by yesterday's sermon by this one statement, "when we pray, we say we give all glory back to god, its actually nonsense"

i felt it badly, because i always say it, and i do mean what i say. the context of the sermon was, we are not really "eligible" to say it because, most of the time, in fact all the time, when everything is smooth sailing, we say that all glory goes back to god, but when things are not going the way that we want, we turn our face away from god. so much for "all glory goes back to god"

i tried talking to the pastor, but i guess. i didnt get a proper assurance from him about the statement. what about those writers in the bible who often say "all glory to God". yes, i know that they went through a lot of trials and it is then when they had the face to face communion with god.

the very essence that disturbed me was, what if there is a genuine sayer of that statement? is it even possible to have a genuine person who really wants to give all glory back to god from the depth of his/her heart? someone who doesnt claim glory even when people think that they deserve a wee bit? have humans changed that much?

before devotion today, i was praying for assurance from god. i realised that many times we listen to sermons and advices from pastors or from elders, but they are the intermediaries. they themselves are not god. and the essence of their advices and sermons rightfully should come from god. i didnt want any assurance from people just to make me feel better. but i wanted god to speak right to my heart, to my whole being. so that when he speaks, i know that it is him and i know what he wants to say.

and the passage was.

2 Timothy 3:14-17 (New International Version)

New International Version (NIV)

14But as for you, continue in what you have learned and have become convinced of, because you know those from whom you learned it, 15and how from infancy you have known the holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus. 16All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, 17so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

To god be the glory.

today's revelation
the passage just struck me

"Luke 17:7-10
serving not out of convenience...
it's our obligation."
-dt-

you want a piece of me boy?

come and fight for it then!

ever had the feeling of being locked up in a tiny room filled with racks and racks of files or books till there is no breathing space and where no one ever comes to visit? each passing day is just a repetition of basic daily needs. each routine day is recorded and added in to the already numerous racks of papers. and that is all.

ever thought of breaking free? running away? calling it over?

its not i think
it a it is
or more like a it has

i think its becoming a habit to self torture

nightmare of the year

imagine all your assignment group members decides to kick you out from the group when the upcoming thesis like project is the major backbone of the whole degree program?!!

crazy?!!

and of all things to dream about, that was the dream i had, 2 nights before my first exam paper.

crazy?!!

secret affair


break free

Temperament

Flexible

Nothing seems to bother you - you sail through life crisis free. It's not that your life doesn't have its ups and downs, it's just that you handle everything without unnecessary drama and antics. You approach each day fresh, not worrying about yesterday or tomorrow. You are confident that you can handle anything that comes your way and experience has shown that you are absolutely right about this.

Interests

Simple

You are continually pursuing a simpler and less complicated life - you don't allow yourself to fall victim to all of the "should do's" that society continually bombards you with. You are thoughtful about your life choices and think in terms of yourself, others and the world in which we live. You have a great sense that we are part of something much bigger and we must be good to others, if we want others and the world to be good to us.

Amusement

Thoughtful

You are easily stressed out and overwhelmed - you need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Because you tend to be self reflective, you know your limits quite well and must remember to not exceed those limits. When you overwhelm your life with obligations and responsibilities, you tend to shut down and go into yourself even further. Take some time to find your serenity and kick back your feet.

Passion

Physical

You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.