i am so proud of myself
finally got to say what i was hiding for so long in myself
mission accomplished
i guess it was a symbolic act for me

would the memories still stay?
it will no matter what happens
its just like a part of me
it forms what i am today
its something i went through for so long
but im proud to say
it made me a better person
so i guess it accomplished
its purpose
in doing what it did to me la

im happier now
no need to worry
no need to hide
no need to show another face
im able to just stand up tall
in front
and be myself
isnt that great?
dont have to bother what others think
dont have to bother whether is he around
dont have to bother what his reaction would be
dont have to purposely hide away from him
dont have to walk the other way when i see him
smiles

dub dak dub dak
grins
how ar?

been really busy with christmas stuff
havent really had time for myself
maybe when i go back to uni
then i will have time
to digest
all that is happening
all that has happened

impact camp was wonderful
cool to see so many youth turn up
and to see them stretch their hands
towards god in heaven
the sight is so awesome la

[people might ask, what will i choose if given plain water and carbonated drinks, sparkling juices, wines or even fruit juices? i will say water because other drinks is only a once in a while wanting but water is something that i need everyday and something that i will always want]

come to think of it, water is not that plain.. if i had soup for dinner, dad always says, drinking soup is enough, you dont need water, but i will always insist for water.. its just different,.. how can anything take the place of water?

human beings die without water.. that just shows how important water is to us... fancy drinks sometimes is just to show off? why drink water when there are other more expensive and more classy drinks? for me, simplicity is it... water is needed day after day.. and we dont get tired of it.. but drinking some fancy drink? after some time, we will get tired of the taste of the richness, of the flavour also maybe... and then we yearn for plain water once again..

so.. plain water is my choice.. *wink*

tired...
back from cambodia
went for dental appointment the next day
braces is coming off on the 13th of feb...
grins...

been running around

just had children's vacation workshop
exhausting
seriously saying
i think i might be too old for them already
haha
for those older than me
dont get me wrong
its just me energy level is slowing down with age
its my 5th year after all
can i be considered a veteran?
haha
when i was younger.
now
doesnt that line sound so familiar
never did i expect myself to say that
i must be getting old..
anyway
i could do all the cleaning up
washing toilets
mopping the floors
vacuuming
that is besides taking care of the children
running all around with them
make sure they are always around
no funny disappearing acts
but now...
haha
even taking care of the children
takes up tons of energy
who ever thought i could catch a fever?
haha
i did

then this coming friday
there is youth impact camp
5 days
its going to be interesting
with all the stuff lined up...
interesting programmes
im sure there will be many revelations made
many conclusions to make

as for work
dont get to work anymore
mom is worried that i will fall sick
been falling sick
haha
have to get used to the environment back home first before
i start working
or start studying
the next semester is definately going to be more challenging
and i really plan to work and study at the same time
dont want to burden my parents with my living expenses
times are not so good now
time for me to learn to be independent also