he asked her, "what if i die?"
he knew he might not have many days left to live.. all the days that he had, were all because of God's grace... Deep down in him, there is the fear of not waking up again, not being able to be there for her anymore, not being able to hear her voice that never fails to cheer him up and make his day.. he fear losing her.. but he knows that he has to convey the message to her.. she has a right to know.. and what she chooses to do with her life or with them after she knew.. that was up to her to decide. but he had to let her know his condition

it took him tons of courage to tell her, because he knew that her tears will drop.. for him... and when she cries... he feels the pain more than she does.. he wants to take it all away for her.. sometimes he says, let me be the one who is feeling all the pain, not her.. but now, its a big dilemma for him.. how long more will he be able to take away her pain? how long more can he be there for her? how long more can he be there to hold her hand? to loan his shoulder for her to cry on, rest on. how long more can he be there to hug her and tell her that is all going to be alright?

as for her, her mind paused at that question... deep down in her, she was shouting out loud... i cant live without you.. you cannot die.. you cannot leave me alone.. there are still many more things that we want to do together remember? so many more places to go, people to visit, so many more dreams to achieve together... but if you die.. it will all go to pieces... pieces that one day will be recollect by her again to be stored in a secure place in her heart..

if you die... i will cry... i will sob.. i will be heartbroken.. i will walk through all those places that has pieces of you in them.. i will go back to every single place we went together.. i will recollect back all the memories i have with you.. and keep them deep down in my heart... i love you...