It must have been really painful for a dancer to realise she cant bend anymore, left right front back. Maybe it doesnt take a dancer to feel the distraught. Any normal human losing the ability to bend freely will suddenly realise that movements shouldnt have been taken forgranted.
Started on physiotherapy sessions, to strengthen the back muscles. Into day 2 now, whole back is really sore. Could be the acids formed, showing how weak my back is.
Didnt expect the scoliosis to be this serious. Its at 41 degrees now. Only medical option is to have corrective surgery. And also to take real good care of the back. No more bending, no more carrying heavy objects. No more slouching. Translates to a lot of things i could have done easily. Like bending down to take something from the floor, or carrying my books around. Or walking hours with dar.
Looking ahead into months to come, its more of a physical and mental preparation for the operation. And then its another round of physical and mental preparation of life after that. Its not going to be the same. But i just have to make full use of what i have.
At least right now, i can still say, thank god for the years of opportunity to dance. :) I really enjoyed them.
Emotions are strong, But am keeping them till. The shoulders to cry on comes to me again sometime beginning of next month.
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