im facing a different aspect of surrendering
its hard to be put in words
tapping in to how he feels
and i can feel the hurt and distress?
i hit right there at the spot where the dirt is
the same spot where he has been trying to ignore
until i brought it up right in his face
ouch
surrender
its one big huge word
brought back memories
that comes along with tears and brokenness
but i know that the reward is there waiting
whatever it may be
im learning and still learning
sometimes the hard way
that God has a plan for me
and i dont want to sway or walk away from the best plans that He has for me
but sometimes i still fail
sometimes i realise it
sometimes i have to think back and meditate on what i've did to realise that i've failed
im grateful that God is a GOd of second and third chances