signs?

what does it mean when i get 3 messages with the same idea in 3 days?
the first one was the book 'passion and purity', somehow it brought back thoughts that i left somewhat closed some 4 years back...thats when the 4 year cycle thought came back to me, but i know and i already knew what i was suppose to do, to surrender and wait in God, and i was doing it...
then Cg last night, leon brought up the passage Mark 10:21..and it struck me again...
just now i went for JY, and the topic for bible study was Sacrifice... passage taken from Genesis 22:1-18, abraham and his willingness to put isaac on the alter..
what is God trying to tell me?
im sure that there is something ,,,,but what and how?
i've been wanting to go for missions for a really long time..since i was in form 1? but i never had the chance to, and i remembered when i left cambodia, i could feel the spirit of God so strongly upon my heart... hints?
its scary but yet exciting at the same time... i know im willing, really willing
what am i suppose to give up? i've already given up what is closest to my heart... i would say i've been through a lot in life to sort of know what i want to achieve in life... what are His plans? so interesting...everything is folding into place..
FAITH = SACRIFICE = BLESSINGS

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uncle lee (nick, jon and jeremy's grandpa) passed away today...i could still remember the time he came and shared during TW, i think it was valentine;s day, somehow i feel like i could relate to him,..haha..maybe im not that much younger than him...
it got me thinking, GOd has put me in situations where i had to face the death of people really close to me, and im not afraid of dying... praise God..=)