today has been a not so good day.took so long to get out from my bed
had thoughts of going home
i would have to admit i do feel inedequate with the lack of ability to communicate with the children that i have contact with, i have so many things to say and to tell them, but i cant. and that is the saddest part. communication is stuck to "what is your name?", "how old are you?" and then after that there is total silence. and that is only for those that understands what i say.. erm.. the older kids only.
this morning i dreaded waking up.. didnt feel like i wanted to face the children today.. and my schedule.. i am suppose to plan myself which area i want tobe in. so many uncertainties that i face... dont know where would be the best place that i can serve... dont know what i will be doing. how am i ever going to make the children understand what i have to say and teach?
been praying really hard.. for God to take away the spirit of reluctance.. im here for a purpose, its like a dream come true thing in my spiritual life. cant afford to let the devil take away the joy and love that God has placed in me