last day here
should write down what i feel
the conclusion of this trip here

it has been a dream come true
for me to just step in to this country,.
to serve the Lord
do i consider myself a missionary?
nah, that is too big of a word to describe myself
havent gone through enough yet

i have seen so many things here
that needs to be changed
the government
the culture of bribery
the poor gettting poorer and the rich, richer
the street children
with no clothes
no food
and they go around begging
only to surrender their day's wages to the ice cream man
or some betting syndicate
so many things we want to do
so many things i want to do
but i realise that it is impossible for man to do it
its way beyond the power of man to change something
that seems to be so big and impossible

but in the midst of the helplessness
i know that there is a God
who is bigger than any problems
who is able to conquer all
no matter big or small
nothing is impossible for Him

the more i think about this country
the more i pray and surrender it all to God
knowing, trusting and believing that
God will indeed do something in this land
as He already has been

will i miss this land?
of course i will
this is a land that i have learned to love
to care and to pray for
but i know that
me alone, its not going to work
for the work here is supposed to be shared among all
young and old
locals or foreigners
God will work through anyone that is willing to let Him do so

i appreciate the short time that i had here
have learned to enjoy every bit of it
the ups and downs
although sometimes it has its disappointments
and not so nice surprises
but i thank God for the people that He has put here
to be able to share among each other
the hopes and joy
the sadness, disappointments, and frustration
and most important
to be able to pray together as a body of Christ

the children?
will definately miss them a lot
cambodians really can pray
the way they pray,
its different
and its powerful
especially when it is done in a group
amazing to see how God's anointing is upon the children and people of this land
strongholds are there
but still
God is doing a great work here
if my God is for me
tell me who can be against me?
amen!!!