argh!!!

argh!!!
i dont know what to say
im so boggled up inside
what am i doing?
tearing up someone slowly?
argh!!!!!!!
i dont mean to
im so sorry
i really am
would it be better if we never met?
im confused
am i running away from something?
am i hiding what im suppose to feel?
am i fearful of admitting to what im feeling?
is it even worth it?
for me ?
go all out for me?
im just another girl
nothing extraordinary about me
why go through all the trouble, pain and suffering?
i cant bear to see him torture himself
he is also god's creation
argh!!!!
i dont know what to say
can i just go up to him and hug him and say
its ok
god will take care of you
nah
it would probably hurt him more to see me
im sorry for putting him in this position
leody knows how much tears came out from his eyes
how many prayers he said
and i know too
im speechless
its not that i dont care for him
i do
but not as much as what he wants?
not now anyway
my heart feels heavy
very heavy
been rather quiet these few days
dont know what to say also
feel like hugging a person and not say anything