struggle

struggling within one's self
internal conflict of wants
can it not happen?
is it ruining everything
or is it bringing it to a higher level?
yet can it really be happening?
living in disbelief
mental rejection of something that is not true
but its not not true
is it?
struggle
between giving in
and hanging on
how come sometimes knowing what to do and doing what is supposed seem to be so far apart
why is it so tough?
would the world be a easier place to live in if emotions did not exist?
i know how i feel
i know what im suppose to do
but the two doesnt seem to connect
i've tried to put the two together
its not working
i will always avoid one
choked within my thoughts
silence
speechless
not that i dont want to say anything
i do not know what to say
do not know how to solve it
do not know how to come to a conclusion